GRADUATION

 Well tonight is graduation and i am dreading it, on top of that it is my hubby's sis's wedding anniversary so we will have all 4 of her kids for the night(my sis will watch them while we go to grad), wasn't thinking when we agreed to it. I hope I can make it all the way through, they are not doing anything special for her but i still feel i need to be there. I really think i feel cheated, I am very angry, she should be there with her classmates, she worked so hard to get there, from 20-40 percent in all classes in 8th grade to 70-90 percent now(or then). I don't even know how to express how i am feeling it is one of those days where ther is a constant run of tears down my face like a faucit you can't turn off.  I am hoping we can pick her diploma up today so it will be on the same day, seems stupid but feels important. Her yearbook is in too and they put a memorial page in there too. IT IS NOT FAIR, I WANT TO WATCH HER GET THAT DIPLOMA HANDED TO HER, I WANT PICS OF HER AND HER FRIENDS IN THEIR CAP AND GOWNS, IT IS NOT FAIR!!!!