Grace

I say "today went well" but it is only noon. I guess I am very hopeful and can see a positive future. The fear that has always held me back is still there but tempered with peace. I may be exactly where I need to be but I don't want to be where I'm at. As I grow in spirit I realize that in any environment if something exceeds it's self everything around it or trapped with in it's environment will either be absorbed or become equal if not stronger in a opposite force in order to survive. This is true with my brother and me. I have noticed recently that as I grow closer to God my brother has became unaccountable and takes no responsibility for his actions. This is very much like the grace of God. "What came first the chicken or the egg?"Is it true that I have received God's grace for help through a difficult time like a cup I was destined to drink from?Or is it that I was destined to grow in spirit and a result of that was my brother rebelling against change or growth?I think it is both and why I may need to become stronger. I may be the only person that will be able to reach my brother in the end. Not what I want to do. I want to move on down the road.There is the alternative that I am already done here and it is time to shake of the dust from my sandals and leave.I am beginning to feel that I have done enough and need to let go for now. God will let me know when to pick it up again or take care of it for me. God Bless