gotta stay sober

i drank yesterday and took my tylenol.. i was very looped.. was up all in the nite sick at my stomach and didn't go to work today. i am not sure the two are related, cuz they hasn't happened before when i drank. my resolve is so strong at times and i feel so good and clear headed.. it would help so so so much if my husband don't drink.. i ain't blaming him for my drinking.. he don't hold the can up to my mouth..but it would be so easy not to drink if it weren't here. the same with gambling. saturday we gambled for 13 hours.. only ended up losing 100 dollars and an entire day and nite..it is insane.. i want to do something productive with my life. not waste it away on booze and gambling rooms. i pray and pray and know what is right in my heart yet i still screw up constantly. i don't want to go to hell. i know God don't like drunkards.. oh people please please pray for me..