Got an Email from my Mom

I was checking my email today and realized my mom had emailed me. She had been holding off because she was too emotional to write me.. She talked about how she's always been there for me and always have me everything I ever needed... She's been a great mother don't get me wrong but I've always felt I was living my life the way SHE wanted me to! I always have done what she said I should do relationship wise and I never did what I wanted. Putting my foot down for once has completely got her messed up. She's saying she's known I've been sad and lonely and that I'm vulnerable. And that Michael preyed on me and it's the biggest mistake I've ever made. She keeps calling him by the name he was born with and it is so painful to hear because I completely accept HIM! She said a lot of things that I WILL NEVER FORGET! I have been missing my mom so much because we were best friend before I came out...but now I have so much anger and pain! I can't even bring myself to respond to her email. I think I'll give it a few days and write some things down. She also said that my family will have nothing to do with me and that she will not let me come between her and my Dad. I think him telling her what I said made her realize that he is willing to be a part off life which is NOT what she wants! I don't want to break up a marriage...but god damn I've lost my mom and now I have to lose my dad too?! I am so lost! I can't even think straight. It took so much for me not to want to hurt myself today...I'm back at square one and can't stop thinking about what she said to me.