Goodbye
I cannot put into words my gratitude for the support, comments and messages you wonderfully kind friends have given me on DS. I am so so sorry that I (especially in recent times) have not done as much back. You are all worth all the time in the world and I am sorry that I have not always supported you as much as I would have liked.
I have decided to cut out as many things eating disorder related in my life and so as you may have guessed from the title of this journal, that includes DS (at least for now). I in part feel bad for my recent distance from DS and for making this decision. But I know that it is the right decision for me at this point. I want to remove as many ED related things from my life in order to rebuild my life without a focus on food, weight and ED for that matter. All of those things do not deserve my acknowledgement and do not deserve to take up space in my mind. That's not to say that all of you do not but unfortunately DS equals ED to me and all that goes with ED. I want to learn to spend my time differently and spend my thoughts differently, I feel to do this I need to break away from DS (and many other things) and get my life on track.
I really hope that I can have support and understanding in this. I also hope that somewhere down the line I will come back on here and report to you all how well I am doing, and even more I hope to hear the same back because we all deserve our lives back from this demon that robs us of so much.
I encourage you to keep fighting, believe in yourselves, we are not given more than we can bare and I know that you all deserve happiness.
If I am friends with you on Facebook then please do keep in touch, and perhaps we can message from time to time. I care about you so deeply and will be wondering how you are.
Also if someone is one Facebook and wants me to add them please do message your name to me.
I am not sure what else to say, but I am sorry that I haven't given you the support you deserve and the support you have given me, which I am so thankful for.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DwF1pbf-2UU this inspires me, my fiancé says it and hope one day I'll believe is, I hope one day you will too (yes I am well away that sounds "cheesy" but I do mean it.)
Lots of love
xoxo
I have decided to cut out as many things eating disorder related in my life and so as you may have guessed from the title of this journal, that includes DS (at least for now). I in part feel bad for my recent distance from DS and for making this decision. But I know that it is the right decision for me at this point. I want to remove as many ED related things from my life in order to rebuild my life without a focus on food, weight and ED for that matter. All of those things do not deserve my acknowledgement and do not deserve to take up space in my mind. That's not to say that all of you do not but unfortunately DS equals ED to me and all that goes with ED. I want to learn to spend my time differently and spend my thoughts differently, I feel to do this I need to break away from DS (and many other things) and get my life on track.
I really hope that I can have support and understanding in this. I also hope that somewhere down the line I will come back on here and report to you all how well I am doing, and even more I hope to hear the same back because we all deserve our lives back from this demon that robs us of so much.
I encourage you to keep fighting, believe in yourselves, we are not given more than we can bare and I know that you all deserve happiness.
If I am friends with you on Facebook then please do keep in touch, and perhaps we can message from time to time. I care about you so deeply and will be wondering how you are.
Also if someone is one Facebook and wants me to add them please do message your name to me.
I am not sure what else to say, but I am sorry that I haven't given you the support you deserve and the support you have given me, which I am so thankful for.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DwF1pbf-2UU this inspires me, my fiancé says it and hope one day I'll believe is, I hope one day you will too (yes I am well away that sounds "cheesy" but I do mean it.)
Lots of love
xoxo
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