Good Walk Today
Today I managed to jog for 1.5 minutes and walk for 3 minutes for a total of 27 minutes. I didn't think I could do it, but I did! I'm so proud of myself! I had to work hard to get there, but I did it. Now I have to do the same thing tomorrow and on Wednesday. It's part of my 5k training. I don't think I will be able to jog like that for my 5k, but we will see. Today I did my mile in 33 minutes and 15 seconds. I don't know about last time... I don't know if I did a mile or a bit under, but my time then was 32 minutes and 50 seconds. Pretty close, but I ran more this time so I was hoping for a much better time (under 32 minutes). I wish I could remember how far I went last time, but it's foggy in my memory. I go different distances on different days, so it's hard for me to reconcile what I did on what day. Oh well, there's not much I can do about it now.
Mood was pretty good today once I got out of my sleep funk. I woke up groggy, and not feeling too good. I got a ton of sleep, and was able to fall asleep last night almost instantly. I didn't wake up almost at all in the middle of the night, and slept through. I kept my sleep mask on, so I don't know what times I woke up when I did, just that I got up 11:30am and took a nap at 12:30 to 2pm. I just couldn't get myself out of bed, and then I made myself some coffee and that's what I needed to get my day started. After my coffee, I was able to get my stuff done, went for my walk, even went grocery shopping when Geo's stepmom picked me up. I'm doing this journal late since she didn't pick me up until 8:30pm and she takes forever shopping. I wasn't too stressed, though... I just wanted to make sure I didn't miss her coming out of the store. She said she was going to have a quick trip and just get some milk, but she took like 45 minutes and came out with a lot more than just milk. It's okay... I got the stuff I needed for the rest of the month. I was able to pay her back some for the meat she bought me with my card, so that's good. They let you pay in parts if you don't have the full amount on your card, so she just used up the last bit of my card.
Geo was in a good mood today too. We were bantering back and forth, and it was fun. He went to take a nap, and when his brother called him and woke him up, we talked for a bit while dinner finished cooking. It was nice. I cherish the times when Geo and I get to talk like that... it seems that even though we live together we don't talk a lot. It's hard for us to both get on the same page emotionally and want to talk or be able to talk in a positive light. I would rather us not talk than talk and exchange words that shouldn't be said. Not that we fight a lot, or are under a lot of stress and avoiding fights, but when you live with someone you have to be careful. I remember the days when it was nice, and we would just talk until all hours of the morning. Now sometimes it's hard for me to think of things to say to him. When I go away we talk more, and it's nice. Not that I want to go away so we talk, but it's nice to talk to him more even though I miss him so much. Speaking of which, I was supposed to go see my mom this month, but it didn't happen. I don't think it's going to, either. I'm broke and so is she. She got a bonus at work (commission) but she's always tight for money.
Food was okay today... I finished off the Chinese food for breakfast, and since I slept so late it was more of a brunch than anything. I had regular dinner (baked chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn) and I might have some wheat thins and hummus later. I just got it at the store and they are calling my name. They say don't go grocery shopping hungry, and I know why.... but I wasn't hungry until I stepped into the store. It smelled so good with the huge bakery they have, but I was able to resist most of the bad temptations like chips and cookies and stuck with the better stuff like Wheat Thins and hummus. Mood was good today... I'm going to mark it as good, since after I got over my funk I was pretty good. Stress wasn't too bad today except when I was waiting for Geo's stepmom to finish shopping and not miss her, but other than that it was low. Sleep I talked about above. Weight is up today, 244.5, probably from the Chinese food salt. I will see what it is tomorrow for my official weight.
Mood was pretty good today once I got out of my sleep funk. I woke up groggy, and not feeling too good. I got a ton of sleep, and was able to fall asleep last night almost instantly. I didn't wake up almost at all in the middle of the night, and slept through. I kept my sleep mask on, so I don't know what times I woke up when I did, just that I got up 11:30am and took a nap at 12:30 to 2pm. I just couldn't get myself out of bed, and then I made myself some coffee and that's what I needed to get my day started. After my coffee, I was able to get my stuff done, went for my walk, even went grocery shopping when Geo's stepmom picked me up. I'm doing this journal late since she didn't pick me up until 8:30pm and she takes forever shopping. I wasn't too stressed, though... I just wanted to make sure I didn't miss her coming out of the store. She said she was going to have a quick trip and just get some milk, but she took like 45 minutes and came out with a lot more than just milk. It's okay... I got the stuff I needed for the rest of the month. I was able to pay her back some for the meat she bought me with my card, so that's good. They let you pay in parts if you don't have the full amount on your card, so she just used up the last bit of my card.
Geo was in a good mood today too. We were bantering back and forth, and it was fun. He went to take a nap, and when his brother called him and woke him up, we talked for a bit while dinner finished cooking. It was nice. I cherish the times when Geo and I get to talk like that... it seems that even though we live together we don't talk a lot. It's hard for us to both get on the same page emotionally and want to talk or be able to talk in a positive light. I would rather us not talk than talk and exchange words that shouldn't be said. Not that we fight a lot, or are under a lot of stress and avoiding fights, but when you live with someone you have to be careful. I remember the days when it was nice, and we would just talk until all hours of the morning. Now sometimes it's hard for me to think of things to say to him. When I go away we talk more, and it's nice. Not that I want to go away so we talk, but it's nice to talk to him more even though I miss him so much. Speaking of which, I was supposed to go see my mom this month, but it didn't happen. I don't think it's going to, either. I'm broke and so is she. She got a bonus at work (commission) but she's always tight for money.
Food was okay today... I finished off the Chinese food for breakfast, and since I slept so late it was more of a brunch than anything. I had regular dinner (baked chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn) and I might have some wheat thins and hummus later. I just got it at the store and they are calling my name. They say don't go grocery shopping hungry, and I know why.... but I wasn't hungry until I stepped into the store. It smelled so good with the huge bakery they have, but I was able to resist most of the bad temptations like chips and cookies and stuck with the better stuff like Wheat Thins and hummus. Mood was good today... I'm going to mark it as good, since after I got over my funk I was pretty good. Stress wasn't too bad today except when I was waiting for Geo's stepmom to finish shopping and not miss her, but other than that it was low. Sleep I talked about above. Weight is up today, 244.5, probably from the Chinese food salt. I will see what it is tomorrow for my official weight.
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