Good Session

had a good session with my therapist today. she wants to change our schedule to twice a week. i felt encouraged that she was supportive of my decisions about school. and she was appalled at the run around between the hospital and my gp.  she was more than a little worried when i told her i had the scalpels out but i told her i put them away again pretty immediately. i told her i haven't been able to get myself to throw them away, but now and again when it gets bad i bring them out and make a choice to put them away again. it's sometimes a tough choice, but i'm glad i keep making it.  she's very cognition oriented. for her much of my treatment is about recognnising patterns of thought and behaviour, interrupting them when neccessary and re-orienting myself toward the positive. i'm trying.  everyday i am trying.