Good Saturday

Today was an okay day... I slept a lot and spent a lot of time in bed, but overall I think I'm doing good. I didn't oversleep last night, which is good. I got about 12.5 hours of sleep. I'm tired, and that's why I spent most of the day in bed, trying to get back to sleep, but oh well. There's only so much I can do. I'm kinda glad I didn't fall back asleep, since I would have then overslept and that might have lead to depression. I think I'm depressed in the back of my head somewhere, but I'm fighting it. Now I have a cat on my chest and she's licking my face. I think she knows that I'm fighting depression too, and she's trying to help me out of it. My Angela....such a loving kitty. Although I wish she wasn't about to sit on the keyboard. I had to turn off the scroll on the keyboard since she kept hitting it with her tail. It's getting to be time to cut her nails again, too. She is scratching my chest with her paws, pawing at me like cats do. Okay, I had to gently nudge her off since she was starting to hurt me. Now she's sitting on the top of the couch with her head next to mine.
I'm cooking dinner right now. I had kinda a productive day... I did manage to go to the store to get Geo some soda. I came home and went right back into bed, but I didn't sleep. I've been online for a bit now, and played with Angela some. I need to take out the trash soon... we have a turkey carcass in there that's gathering flies. I'm just waiting until dinner is done with so I can throw the trash from dinner in there. I can't believe that the whole turkey is gone already. Well, I can believe it, I guess, since we had both Geo and I eating off of it for 3 days. All I ate for 3 days was turkey. Tonight we go back to chicken. I don't know if I'm looking forward to chicken or what, but I know that I'm going to need to get back to eating some serious calories.
Yesterday I was low on calories, I ate under 1,200. Today I'm under 800 again, but I think I'm going to have some ramen later to make up for it. I think I should be able to make it to 1,300 today. That's about what I want to be around for me to lose weight, I think. The tracker on Spark People says that I should be eating about 1,500, but that's too much for me to eat easily. I gained weight over the holiday, too, about 3 pounds. Not too much, and I know most of it is water weight from all the salt, but it's still discouraging. I need to remember that I have to be in a certain range of calories to lose, not just as low as I want to go. I just need to drink more water, too, since everything I ate for the past couple of days was loaded with salt.
Christmas music just came on my music player.. the one Christmas song I have on my list lol. I'm not a big fan of Christmas music since normally I'm not a big fan of Christmas, but over the past couple of years it's been changing. I think that it's because I've been having some good Christmases and that I'm starting to get older and appreciate it more. Christmas used to get me depressed, but now it's something I look forward to. I'm looking forward to going to see my mom for Christmas. It will be my first time at her mother in law's for Christmas. I hope her husband behaves himself. That's my only worry about the holiday this year... that her husband is going to get into a fight with someone and ruin the day. He's been pretty well behaved when I've been there so far, so I hope it keeps up. I need to put up my tree... it's a tiny tabletop one that has the fiber optic lights on it. Yeah, I know, fake tree, but we don't have ornaments or anything to put on it, so I have to go with what we have.
Food today was mostly turkey and chicken. I had plenty of protein, and I guess that's a good thing. I had almost no carbohydrates again, and that's not good. Tonight I need to eat some more ramen to get my calorie count up. I know it has a lot of salt, but I need the calories and it's something that to me tastes good and it's something I can eat when there's not a lot that I can stomach. It's like chicken soup. It really -is- like chicken soup, since it's chicken flavored ramen (soup). It just has noodles and no pieces of chicken in it. I miss my veggies that I would add into it. Oh well, when the new food stamps come in again I guess. I got Geo his soda with his money, so that's good. Less burden on me. I just have to go again after the 1st to get him more. I guess I can live with that. As long as he continues to drink more milk, I guess I should be content that he's cutting down on soda.