Good Morning Son!

Good Morning Kenny, I miss you so much.  I was making coffee this morning and my mind went back to the conference center and you and I were talking and making our coffee.  Mom really gets sad.  I am really glad you can't see my sadness.  I love you so much.  Easter is soon as I am sure you know, I would think they celebrate Jesus in Heaven that day!!  I know we were usually not together during Easter your work for God kept you so busy.  That's okay though cause that was what you wanted to do.  We always talked on Holidays, so I will miss our talk.  It's been really busy last week or so.  Guess what mom's doing, playing the piano at church again.  We are having a program at church Sunday so it should be good.  But you remember how it was I drove you guys crazy with my piano practicing so much but now Fred and Abby have to hear it.
I really wish I could talk to you, there are some issue's in the family going on and you might could have helped us find the answers, but it will be okay.  Your brother's really miss you and love you so much.   Brent was so happy you like the lift chair even though you only got to use it a week.  But it made him so happy to make you happy.
I  miss our daily pepsi together, our holding hands, you telling me you love me, I just miss you.  You are and were the  best son a mom could have had.
I wish I could look in those baby blue eyes of yours and tell you how much I love  you.  I know you would say Aw Mom that's enough but I would anyway.  But I knew you loved it.  You were so handsome.  I want to tell you how proud I am of you.  What you did with your life, serving God and helping people.  So many people miss you.  Some don't know your gone yet, just got asked yesterday how you were doing.  I said you didn't make it here on this earth but I am sure your having the time of you life.  Right where you always would end up in Heaven just not as soon as you had to go.  Your my first born and you were always so happy.
The other night Fred and I watched a video I had made for you boys, you didn't get to see it.  It was going to be a surprise.  But anyway it starts with your dad and my's wedding and then your 1 and 2nd birthday, then each of your brother's brith's and ends where we were building that room, I know you remember that.
I am going to play it Easter.  You four boys had such a good time growing up and you were the leader of the  pack.  They all looked up to you.  You helped me take such good care of them.  We were talking about you the other night.  Do you remember the day you got home from school, you were just in the first grade and mom wasn't home yet.  You were so scared thinking your mom had been in a wreck and been killed, I drove up with the other boys and there you were the streams of tears down your face crying so hard.  Mommy just swept you up and held you tight mom would never have left you in early life.  Mom's still here waiting to hold you tight again some day.
Kenny, you brought such joy to my life.  I loved you so deeply.  I miss you and wish God had let you stay longer with us, not with the cancer, but with health and doing what you loved most, seeing your mom and doing God's work.  I know God's work was alway first for you.  I remember the day you called to tell me you were going to sing in church again.  Then the day you called and said I'm going to do it mom.  And I asked what and you said what I have been called to do, I am going to be a ministry.  I know times were rough for you guys, money, finding the right place God wanted you to be.  But you know how you loved our farm. Well God knew to cause he sent you to the Church's Conference Retreat Center as the Director and just driving down the road it was like going to our farm.  So you were home at last on this earth (in a way), now your in your earthly home.  I bet that is greater than anywhere.  Wish you could call me and tell me about it.  I know I have to wait till that day to when I get to come home to see you.  I can't wait my son, my wonderful wonderful son.  Mommy misses you so much. Love you Mom

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Such a touching letter to your precious son. I am glad you have the peace knowing that you will someday reunite with him. Hugs, Barbara
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hi Sandi. This is the best I have seen you write.Can i say this. I see acceptance, I see hope (reference to Easter) I see pain but I expect that. Like many of us on DS we try to control our pain and not let it over take up. I think you are doing much better.
KellyLee105
KellyLee105

Such a heartfelt letter to you son..My son died on easter Weekend, 2006. When you said they may be celebrating Jesus\'s Birthday in heaven.. I could picture them all celebrating together..Thank you for sharing your letter to your son, it made me smile as well..Hugs, Kelly
CorriesMom
CorriesMom

Thanks for sharing the tender, sweet memories of Kenny. What a beautiful letter. I hope it helps you feel soooooo close to Kenny at this resurrection time of year!

Love and hugs ~ Debbie
KandL
KandL

As Jesus rose so will we as believers. Wow, what a great man he was/is as he continues to serve the Lord. My son was a Christian too & that gives me comfort.I know he\'s with Jesus. It doesn\'t take the ache away as you so profoundly expressed it is a long wait to see our children again. I wish for you an abundance of peace & love. Sincerely, Linda
biowoman
biowoman

Precious, precious letter...love to you...Karen
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deleted_user

Thank you for sharing your memories and letter to your son... love to you my friend..
ihart
ihart

I like how you comunicate with your son and I really believe he hears and feels you. Hugs, Inga
ihart
ihart

I like how you share with your son. Hugs, Inga