Good days off
I had a good couple of days off. I did my first volunteer work for the American Diabetes Foundation. It felt empowering. Sara and I also played trivia at the “Two Mikes Saloon,” with her parents and one third place. The prize was an assortment pastries from the bakery that I love. I was good and only ate one piece of chocolate covered bacon. Yummy.
Sense you passing I have found myself enjoying being outdoors. I find pleasure sitting out on the deck and watching the birds and the ever changing clouds as I did when I was a child. I have also rolled down the large hill in the side yard and can see you smiling and shaking your head at my antics. I am doing better sweetheart and can find joy again in the small things that I had so foolishly taken for granted.
I know my life will never be the same in that I don’t have you by my side. It is hard at times and I still find myself being angry with God, myself and you. I know that you did not choose to leave me and the girls and that God loves us all and holds us close to his heart. It is just hard.
It is interesting on how many random people I have met who have touched my life with kindness. My friends have also provided a safe place for me to cry, rant, and to talk. Our children have also grown in these last three months and have chosen to honor your memory by becoming the adults that you had always envisioned, (I can sense you smiling.) Your Mom is doing well as expected and misses her baby boy. My heart aches for her having to experience the unimaginable loss of losing her child. Heartbreaking.
The world loved you Michael, your kindness, sense of fairness and beautiful smile are missed by everyone who’s life you have touched. You were amazing. You are amazing. As for me I continue to grow more independent daily and taking the baby steps needed in redefining my life. I know that life will unfold and show itself to be good, meaningful, and full of purpose. Suzie said it best, “that God will heal your broken heart. Just give it time and focus on healing." I am healing.
I love you.
Me
Sense you passing I have found myself enjoying being outdoors. I find pleasure sitting out on the deck and watching the birds and the ever changing clouds as I did when I was a child. I have also rolled down the large hill in the side yard and can see you smiling and shaking your head at my antics. I am doing better sweetheart and can find joy again in the small things that I had so foolishly taken for granted.
I know my life will never be the same in that I don’t have you by my side. It is hard at times and I still find myself being angry with God, myself and you. I know that you did not choose to leave me and the girls and that God loves us all and holds us close to his heart. It is just hard.
It is interesting on how many random people I have met who have touched my life with kindness. My friends have also provided a safe place for me to cry, rant, and to talk. Our children have also grown in these last three months and have chosen to honor your memory by becoming the adults that you had always envisioned, (I can sense you smiling.) Your Mom is doing well as expected and misses her baby boy. My heart aches for her having to experience the unimaginable loss of losing her child. Heartbreaking.
The world loved you Michael, your kindness, sense of fairness and beautiful smile are missed by everyone who’s life you have touched. You were amazing. You are amazing. As for me I continue to grow more independent daily and taking the baby steps needed in redefining my life. I know that life will unfold and show itself to be good, meaningful, and full of purpose. Suzie said it best, “that God will heal your broken heart. Just give it time and focus on healing." I am healing.
I love you.
Me
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Beautiful.