Gonna try

Right, Im gonna try and use the site a little more now.  Im in such a whole again.  Nothing seems to be really lifting the mood.  I cant be the only person here who thinks about death this much.  Im so tired of it. And Im struggling to fight.  Im not saying Im planning anything here.  My family has already lost a brother and a son.  But its so hard when these feelings take over.  Im not sleeping at all.  Maybe a few hours in the day every now and again,  but I can go days without any sleep.  When I do I wake up with panic attacks now.  I have to go.  Ive taken some sleeping tablets and its getting harder typing.
 
I will try harder to use the site.  I hope and wish others well.
 
PB