GONE AGAIN!!!! LOL

Tomorrow I leave for my annual trip to Lake Tahoe for continuing ed.  I am soooo looking forward to leaving the heat here behind (109 F today!)....and it will be in the nice dry 80's there during the day, and down to the 40's and 50's at night.  HEAVEN!!!! Last year I was soooo worried about being in such a gambling environment...where I had gambled a lot in the past.....but this year, I feel very confident I will return still gamble-free!I don't want to get over-confident....but I just picture myself waltzing by the machines and tables and feeling proud that I am not falling prey to the wiles of the casino operators. A guy who works in my building used to see me late at night at the blackjack tables and "came out" to me that he has a gambling problem.  I told him I haven't gambled since 1-1-08, had to quit...sooooo tired of losing.  He assumed I was going "off the wagon" going to Tahoe and told me his favorite "hosts" to mention his name to......I was happy to let him know I'm still not gambling, and said I'm enjoying life a lot more without it!   I'm so thankful I'm not tempted to fool myself into thinking I could be a "winner" in a casino anymore! There are no winners there....only people who haven't quite lost everything yet! I saw some show on TV a year or so back that showed casino hosts discussing taking down their high-stakes players.  It was just so brittly cold and heartless....40 below zero cold in their hearts.....I just don't know how they can prey on people like that!  I guess it is a "game" to them to fleece wealthy people of their money....do they feel superior????   In the same way a drug dealer feels superior to the junkies they sell to????   What really matters is how I feel about myself....how am I doing?  Am I able to feel pride in the way I'm living my life?  Am I taking responsibility (and the power that comes with it) for my own life? I'll try to check in while I'm gone, but probably won't post much....wishing everyone a great week! Love to Everyone.....Dianne

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Sounds like a plan. Have a great trip! I\'m going to Laguna Beach and I\'m planning to have fun in spite of my current ankle injury just because it will be worth it to just spend the day on the beach...
Enjoy GF!
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YOU GO GIRL!!! RECOVERY ROCKS AND SO DO YOU!!
JENNIFER
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Have a great time at the Lake Tahoe event (conference??) and enjoy that wonderful weather.
SheliaMac
SheliaMac

Have a wonderful, GF trip in Tahoe. Just think, the best souviner you will be bringing back is your sanity. You sound like a very strong woman that knows what she is doing and what she WONT be doing..... Have fun!
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Have a wonderful trip. I am a little jealous of the nice weather in Tahoe....100+ degrees here for several days as well. Sigh......if only I could live where it was 70 year round with no natural disasters. lol. I have often wondered how people can work in those places and see all the addicts lose everything....do they have hearts? I know it puts food on their tables...but it is not a job that I could do. Enjoy your trip!!!!
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Enjoy the cool break!!!! I\'ve never been to Tahoe but I hear it\'s a beautiful place. Try and have some fun and not just work the whole time you are there.

Hugs Steph
Dracona
Dracona

oh you pooor pooor thing. 80\'s with cool nights? lake tahoe.... i really feel for you... LOL
and you will return just fine. you are very strong and dedicated. and you will have a blast out there in the sun you wont even think about the monsters.
mrsfroggie
mrsfroggie

I know you will do just fine in Tahoe. I too remembe your last trip and the concern you had when you left, I also remember the joy you felt when your returned still gamble free! I feel for all of you that live with high tempetures! I couldn\'t handle it. About normal high we have here this time of the year is in the low to mid 80\'s. This summer has been rainy and cool compared to normal. I can\'t handle the hot weather! Peace and LOve. Patty