Going to Church

Well, I did it.  I actually attended services at my daughter's church.  I think the last time I was even IN a church was when we had the memorial service for my parents back in 1985.  It has been a very long time.  Yesterday, I wrote about my relationship with God, or my lack of one.  I wrote that I felt like He was throwing me a life saver and that I planned on hanging on to it.  My experience today only proves to me that the Lord truly does work in strange ways.  Today's sermon was all about Jonah & the "big fish".  I never paid attention to the story other than the stuff about getting swallowed by a whale and all that.  But, as I learned from today's lesson, Jonah was asked by God to go to Ninevah and warn the people that He was unhappy with them and would pass judgement should they not change their evil ways.  Jonah, instead, ran as fast and as far from God as he could, and boarded a ship headed far, far away from Ninevah.  When God created the storm that threatened to sink the ship, Jonah ended up being blamed for it and tossed overboard.  The "big fish" took him into his mouth for 3 days and 3 nights, essentially saving Jonah, NOT consuming him.  The point is that we all run from God for whatever reason.  But God is faster and He will eventually catch up and send us the message that He LOVES us, regardless of what we do or how hard we try to ignore Him.  You see, I'm like Jonah.  I have been running from God my whole life.  Losing Barbara has brought me to the brink of despair, but God is pulling me back.  I am so tired of running FROM Him.  Instead, I think I'll try running TO him.  The pastor has 3 more sermons he intends to deliver regarding Jonah, and I'll be in the front row.  No, I'm not a religious nut now.  But I believe in God.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

That is so cool! Love the way God uses our sadnesses and our losses to teach us, call us, change us and mould us. Love your story Joe - keep us posted!
doyew
doyew

It is GOOD that you are running toward Him now. You will be blessed.
inmemoryofhattie
inmemoryofhattie

I am so very glad that you have found faith. I AM HOPING THAT YOUR EXPERIENCES IN THE CHURCH WILL BE HEALING AND LIFE AFFIRMING.
best to you
OnMyOwn2010
OnMyOwn2010

Hello, ~ I am excited and so blessed by this entry! My spirit rejoices in your newfound (perhaps just previously unacknowledged) faith...so happy that you are choosing to run TO God, not trying to run FROM Him, for I know that is only in Him & His Strength that we will be able to make through this experience...I cannot imagine trying to walk this valley without Him...thanks for sharing....Blessings & Hugs to you, my brother... ~E~ in TX
deleted_user
deleted_user

Joe -- Your post warms my heart. My friend, God will always be there for us. I have to believe or I truly would have gone crazy these past few weeks. It\'s only with God\'s help that i have been able to survive. Hang on to God\'s hand, my friend.

Hugs, Carla
Daninmn
Daninmn

Joe,
I\'m very happy for you Joe, may your relationship with you savior continue to grow.
Your friend
Dan
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am so glad for you Joe,
I know that in the early stages of grief, we all experience confusion and a questioning of how could God do this sort of thing. I experienced a lack of faith, and I know that it is normal, I questioned my faith at times, yet I know that there is a God. I know that He lives. The only way we can be happy is by doing what He has asked us to do. I hope that you can find some comfort, and I am excited about what you learned about Jonah. God is in charge and He will never give you any trial that you can not handle. Hugs~Shelley
rene4ever
rene4ever

Good for you Joe,
I know that there is comfort in returning to God. Keep up the work and it really is a journey as they tell me. I did not understand that for about two months and then it dawn on me that every day a step forward helps get us to a place we can then attempt to feel OK. No finished but OK.
Peace
Dave