Going through the worst time.

Can't believe that even in a time when I messed things up with that one friend of mine and she was the only friend left in my life! on top of that I don't think things are working out at this new church. How many churches do I have to go to to find people that want to be real friends with me? Cuz I've been to so many! I must be so major different to different for anyone to want to be friends with me. Then why can't I find anyone like me?! It's like I'm my own species! I just feel so depressed I don't know what to do anymore.