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Well so far since DH has been gone, I have went through my first mothers day, fathers day, my B-day and our anniversary this past monday.  I see that i have made it through them, not always without tears but I made it.  So now I come onChristmas which was his Fav holiday and even more since having Aubrey.  I pray everynight to God that he gives me strength and also ask DH for his strength 2 get me through this.  Aubrey makes gives me so much hope but U still have that hurt that is so deep it takes your breath away.  I wake up with new fears for are future as I am the one who has to be responsible for making sure all goes well, what will happen if something happens 2 me how can we make it on my income alone.  Well I ever be at peace?  Questions that no one can answer I understand but worries I have.  I wish everyone a Merry Christmas and ask you all to please keep us in your prayers as they do help.    Love Michelle

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lindalun
lindalun

I hope you have a Merry Christmas if that is possible. Your husband will always be at your side guiding you and giving you the strenght you need. I understand your concerns if something should happen to you who takes care of your kids but God is good and he will keep you here for a long time to see them grow. Hang in there and God bless you and kids. Linda
strength4today
strength4today

I hoep that you have a Merry Christmas in spite of the sadness you carry with you. I think it\'s pretty normal to cry during these special events, you lost the most special person you had. Hopefully you and Aubrey can create some very special traditions to honor her daddy at Christmas. Maybe that would help keep his spirit alive for both of you. Hang in there hun, you\'re going to be okay...eventually. :) Praying for you and Aubrey!
deleted_user
deleted_user

love ya Michelle, I will be praying hard! (((hugs)))
deleted_user
deleted_user

Merry Christmas to you, and to Aubrey. You are in my thoughts as always.
deleted_user
deleted_user

I wish you and Aubrey a Happy New Year and that 2010 brings you many moments of joy!
deleted_user
deleted_user

How are you doing? I hope Christmas wasn\'t too hard for you. Happy New Year to you and sweet Aubrey!