going home soon

We are coming to the end of our time in our house in Florida and going home to Canada in a couple of weeks.  I am looking forward to being near my children and being able to babysit my young grandson.  I am also incredibly excited about the birth of our granddaughter in August. We are very busy with our business and time is flying. My anxiety  is considerably less but not gone completely but returning home will help. I find I am not tuning in to DS as often as I used to so I hope this is a good sign and I am only going to LTA and OOYDD.  These two are the ones I find so helpful.  I also find when I read posts that I do not become so panicked as I was a few months ago. Healing is taking place however I do believe I will live with difficult thoughts for the rest of my life.  I am sad for that but refuse to think negatively so whenever they come up I am so much more able to get rid of them. I hope you are all well in your own journey.  Sometime I think journey is such a negative word but I can't think of any other to describe life.  Perhaps when I am back close to my family the journey will be so much sweeter. I know it will be. I also hope that as time goes on I will be able to refer to my house in Florida as home as well.  But I have not reached that comfort in this house yet.  Maybe next year.

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Journey to me is a hopeful word. Vacations, college, childbirth, they are all experiences of a journey or an adventure. This can be a new beginning also. You sound strong and hopeful and I am happy for you and your return to Canada. Perhaps you could make some subtle of big changes to the home in Florida to make yourself feel better about it. Sometimes performing a ritual can help also. I know that sounds a bit silly but it can help. I have not seen you on DS much lately and I am glad to hear it is because you are feeling better.
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Good luck Wasz, I hope you are in a place of peace and contentment...I want to be there too...XOXO