Going crazy

I couldn't get my depo provera shot (birth control) and I have been really going crazy. I used this site called LemonAid and I got a prescription for the Pill and I've been taking that until I can get my shot. It's a cool site and it deals with other things. Go check it out! But the Pill has other side effects, and I'm getting really bad mood swings. I took some klonopin and it didn't help. I don't want to go to the hospital since there's nothing they can do for me but drug me up. I can manage at home for now. On Monday I'm going to go to the clinic and see if I can get something for it, outpatient. I DO NOT want to go to the hospital. I don't need to, and I'm scared if I go in saying I'm having mood swings that is what they are going to do to me. Most of me wants to go and get help, but I'm so scared that they are going to lock me up. I won't get my correct meds (my trainee psych said he didn't want to give me 20 mg Haldol since it's a high dose so he gave me 10 mg). He doesn't understand that on 10 mg Haldol I still hallucinate. I will give him one more chance and then switch if he can't help me. Even his supervisor told him to put me on 10 mg. I brought my 20 mg bottle in and my trainee psych said he will fix it on my next appointment, just take 2 10 mg pills. Luckily I have a back up and I can do that... if I didn't have enough  of the 10's I don't know what I would do.