Going crazy...
I keep feeling like I am going mad. I am a Christian and am trying so so hard to try find, beg, accept God's comfort and possibly somewhere in there some kind of peace..... But it just seems like it's just not happening. I am questioning things to the point of where I know feel and URGENT need to see a Meduim to try get some understanding. Which ofcourse is against Christianity. I just dont know what to do anymore. My husband committed suicide two weeks ago now. It killed him but feels like its killing me slowly too. I have sunk into a deep depression and cant seem to climb out. I just really need answers or feel like I am going to lose total control.
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You are dealing with the worst kind of grieve!! I lost my father and sister the same way. I have been thinking of them a lot since I lost Art, my loving husband, on May 19th of this year to cancer. I keep telling myself that all of them are no longer suffering. However, I am. They are at peace. However, I am not. With time the pain gets easier. It has only been 2 weeks and you are in very beginning stages of grieving. You are not losing control!! You are not alone!! If you feel that you want to see a medium, do so. Do whatever it takes to help you find some peace. God would want you to. Sending hugs. Sue