God spoke to me
i've always prayed. perhaps not on a regular basis. i think this is because i felt deep down that my prayers weren't actually being heard... what if it was a lie? that is teh first time i have ever spoken allowed, because i was ashamed of feeling that way and wanted to think i didn't. i've been so down and have prayed and yelled and vented and cried to Him. i prayed for a sign that he was really listening. i prayed to feel him. the whole time i felt nothing. tonight i was watching t.v. when the show i was watching ended. a ministry came on, and usually i change the station at this point. but immediately from the first words i was drawn in. the sermon was aimed at me. i know it. i froze and couldn't help but cry as i listened. i still can't quite stop the tears (of joy for once) and can't wipe the smile from my face. i feel Him with me, right now beside me. i hope to make this feeling last. i hope to start a new hourney with Him, and gladly accept any advice and strength you may offer. i love you all!
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read the bible and get to know god. he is there for you ask for help and he will find away!
hugzzz you are a worthy person and are needed!
Wow, I can really relate to this post!
I can relate to your feelings, about praying but.. deep down, not really trusting. And, once that is realized, trying to change.
And also, I can relate to those little unexpected things (i.e. the TV sermon) that show us, that we\'re not alone after all.
I\'ve come to understand faith in a whole new deeper way.. I think :-)
Thanks for sharing!
I can relate to. I remember that a few months ago I was feeling really sad because my grandfather was doing really bad health wise. He has terminal cancer. I was crying because I knew that I might never see him again (I am away at college). All of a sudden a song that my grandmother used to sing to my mom and that my mom sang to me popped into my head and I felt safer. I felt like she was visiting from heaven waiting for her husband to join her and looking over us all in the meantime. I dont know if thats true..but Id like to think it is. I think she was telling me it\'s okay he is okay. My aunt told me a few days later that my grandfather has been saying that he sees a spirit of a woman standing in the corner of his room every night. He keeps asking her to come to him and she keeps saying \"not yet\". I got chills when she told me that. He is still alive and he still says that every night that spirit of that woman stays in his room looking over him. I had lost my faith in god for a while..but I def. have it now.
that is so beautiful. how very touching this journal entry is. i hope you are still have good days!
Hey thats me that is:) except I have not had the Sermon reach me quite like that. I have frequently felt challenged,but not that He is with me,helping. I am so pleased for you I know God can do miracles! x