God spoke to me

i've always prayed. perhaps not on a regular basis. i think this is because i felt deep down that my prayers weren't actually being heard... what if it was a lie? that is teh first time i have ever spoken allowed, because i was ashamed of feeling that way and wanted to think i didn't. i've been so down and have prayed and yelled and vented and cried to Him. i prayed for a sign that he was really listening. i prayed to feel him. the whole time i felt nothing. tonight i was watching t.v. when the show i was watching ended. a ministry came on, and usually i change the station at this point. but immediately from the first words i was drawn in. the sermon was aimed at me. i know it. i froze and couldn't help but cry as i listened. i still can't quite stop the tears (of joy for once) and can't wipe the smile from my face. i feel Him with me, right now beside me. i hope to make this feeling last. i hope to start a new hourney with Him, and gladly accept any advice and strength you may offer. i love you all!