God's Grace

My mom has softened a bit after a time of trouble between her and me.  I guess my emotions got out of control, and so did hers.  She realized that I only want the best for her, and wrote me a loving note, and I called her and we have reached a new level of understanding and respect in our relationship.Her surgery is scheduled for June 15th.She was told that hers is a slow growing tumor at only a level one.  That is very different from mine that was a fast growing mass at a level three.  The doctor told her she probably had hers for about 8 years.  He said she may or may not have to do radiation or chemo afterwards.  She told me she is not planning to do anything except the surgery, no matter what he says.So that is the facts as I know them.  I guess I was surprised that hers was so much different than mine, but it may be that a miracle is yet to be here if hers has not spread out of the uterus yet! 

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Theresa
I just sent you a hug before I read your journal. You have answered all my questions. I\'m so happy that you and your mom have reached an understanding. My prayers go out to your mom on June 15th. I know she will be fine, she has an amazing, loving daughter who will be by her side.

Love, Jackie
tbhope1
tbhope1

Thanks Jackie! I appreciate you saying that.
and I appreciate your prayers on the 15th too!
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Hi Theresa, Just a few more days before your Mom has her surgery. I pray all goes well. I do not have a close relationship with my mother... you two are so lucky to have each other... Blessings and Prayers for a speedy recovery.
Dodi
tbhope1
tbhope1

Thank you for your thoughts Dodi. I am sorry that you do not have a good relationship with your mother. I spent many years in therapy working on my relationship, as a mother/daughter relationship is very complicated. I am grateful that my parents have lived long enough so that we could all heal from the early years and let forgiveness and love override bad memories. Once you see where they are coming from and what influenced their decisions, forgiveness is easier. But understanding has to come first sometimes.
I have had many feelings for my mother at different times in my life, but I could not be happy without the peace. One of the reasons I have peace is because I am not holding things in that needed to be said or done, and if either of my parents should die, I would not have regret. That would be the worst thing I think is having someone die and regretting something I could have done or said to make things better. That\'s my sermon today!