God plese help me!!!!

I don't know what really happened to me. All I know is that I am getting sick and tired of suffering. I want my freedom back and I don't care how it comes. I am tired of depression overcoming me. I am tired of staying on my side of the room not able to clean my house and go where I please. I want to be normal what ever that means. I would love to just stretch outside and say this is good but unfortunately I also have to combat with allergies/asthma. How much longer must I miss out enjoying my beautiful children because of this disorder that has no end in sight. Yes I am not taking any meds right now, but I am ready to fight this issue head on without remorse.  When people get sick and tired of gettting their rights taken away from them what do they do? They fight, well it is kind of the same way with me, except I am fighting it spiritually. I am asking God to intervene and help me fight this battle because I know it is not mine's but the Lords. I do believe in him and hope that he will come through for me as he did when I was younger. For who ever reads this journal please remember my family and I in prayer. The more prayers that go up the more I know that these prayers will be answer and changes will come within my family. People are so precious to me, that is why I can't just sit there and allow my self to have racing thoughts. I don't have time for those awful games. I am ready to get me a full time job and become my own person in this lousy society that we live in. If anyone have any suggestions for me, please feel free to leave them. I am ready to bounce back and complete my Bachelor degree in Information Technology with Multimedia and Animation through Kaplan University. This is my third term in this subject and thank God I am doing better than when I was in Business Administration. Next year my son will be graduating from high school and a couple of years later 2 more and eventually the 2 more until the last two go through the process. I am proud of all of my children they have been working so hard to make good grades in school, and at the same time, have been taking the time to encourage me not to give up in my education. I hope and pray that they too will make it in a college or university. God bless all those that have sickness and pain in their body. Let them be healed from it and let them live normal lives. Give those suffering mental disabilities the chance to be understood and heard. They are not bad people they just need a little more love than the average person. Pain is pain no matter who the person is. I just hope and pray that cures will come in the near future for everyone that has pain and suffering no matter what type it is.