GOD, I LOVE MY WIFE...THANK YOU JESUS.

WELL, NEEDLESS TO SAY, YESTURDAY I WAS EXTREMELY UPSET, AND I EVEN GAVE MY WIFE 'THE LOOK' OF WARNING TO SAY WITHOUT SAYING THAT NOW WAS NOT A GOOD TIME.  IT WAS WHILE I WAS ACTUALLY WRITING MY LAST JOURNAL, SO THE RAGE WAS FLOWING OUT OF ME ON TO THE SCREEN.  SHE CARRIED ON AND TOOK A BATH AND THEN WENT OUT FOR A WALK.  AFTER I FINISHED WRITING, I WENT OUTSIDE ON TO OUR GREEN,GRASSY KNOWLE IN THE SHADE AND YES, I HAD A SMOKE TO BREATH AND CALM DOWN.  DANIELLE CAME INTO THE QUAD A FEW MINUTES LATER AND CAME UP AND SAT ABOUT 3 FEET FROM ME STILL A LITTLE BIT SHAKEN THINKING THAT I WAS MAD AT HER BECAUSE OF 'THE LOOK OF DEATH'.  I TOLD HER THAT I COULD NEVER BE MAD AT HER, AND SHE EXPLAINED THE SITUATION AND IT TURNED OUT THAT I OVER REACTED JUS AWIDDLE.  I LOOKED HER IN THE EYE AND APOLOGIZED.  SHE WAS JUST DOING WHAT WAS RIGHT AND HELPING OUT AT THE SINCERE REQUEST OF HER POPS(STEP-DAD).  WE TALKED AND WORKED SOME SHIT OUT.  WE AGREED THAT HER MOM CAN BE NICE ON OCCASION, AND THAT WE WOULD HAVE ARE GUARD UP WHEN IT COMES TO HER MOTHER AND FILTER WHEN SHE IS TRYING TO HELP TO HELP AND WHEN SHE IS TRYING TO BE AN ADVOCATE FOR THE DEVIL(HER BROTHER) BECAUSE SHE ALSO DOES TRY TO GO THROUGH DANIELLE TO HELP THAT LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT AND THAT STILL BOTHERS ME GREATLY.  WE WILL JUST HAVE TO DESERN BETWEEN WHEN SHE'S TRYING TO FUCK US OVER, AND WHEN SHE'S HONESTLY TRYING TO HELP US, WHICH IS STILL SAD, BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS. THE ROOMMATE IS FINALLY OUT OF OUR HOME, AND WE ARE ABSOLUTELY EXSTATIC.  SHE HAD STOLEN FROM US IN SEVERAL WAYS AND FUCKED US OUT OF OVER A THOUSAND DOLLERS, BUT SHE IS GONE AND BACK TO LIVING WITH SATAN(DANIELLE'S BROTHER) AND IT NO LONGER EVEN MATTERS.  WE ARE SO THROUGH, AND THOSE TWO WILL NEVER EVER EXIST TO US AGAIN.  PRAISE GOD.  WE HAD SO MUCH FUN LAST NIGHT GOING GROCERY SHOPPING KNOWING ALL THE FOOD WE BOUGHT, NO ONE WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO EAT IT BUT ME AND DANIELLE AND DEUCE WHEN HE'S OVER.  WE JUST BOUGHT WHAT WE ENJOY AND WE WERE JUST SO GIDDY THAT THE NO GOOD SON OF A BITCH WAS FINALLY OUT OF OUR HOME AND IS NEVER TO STEP FOOT IN THERE EVER AGAIN, AND WE PINKY-SWORE TO THAT.  DANIELLE IS SO AMAZING, AND I AM FULLY CONVINCED THAT I WILL LOVE HER FOREVER.  SHE IS MY PRECIOUS ANGEL FROM THE LORD.  SHE IS MY DRUG THAT KEEPS ME SAIN AND KEEPS ME FROM GOING COMPLETELY OFF MY ROCKER AND GETTING INTO SERIOUS TROUBLE.  LORD, YOU COULD NOT HAVE BROUGHT A MORE PERFECT WOMAN FOR ME INTO MY LIFE.  SHE TRUELY COMPLETES ME AND IS MY HELPMATE TO GET THROUGH THESE BI-POLER TRIALS OF LIFE AND I AM TRULY BLESSED BY THE LORD FOR HIM BRINGING ME INTO HER LIFE, AND HER INTO MY LIFE.  SHE COMPLETELY MELTS MY COLD AND RAGING HEART IN AN INSTANT WITH HER LOVING EYES AND INTELLIGENT WORDS THAT ONLY I'LL UNDERSTAND.  LAST NIGHT I JUST SHOOK MY HEAD AND SOBBED TEARS OF AMAZEMENT OF HOW MUCH I AM LOVED BY GOD TO HAVE THIS IN-ALL-WAYS BEAUTIFUL WOMAN IN MY LIFE.  I AM SO UNWORTHY TO HAVE THIS AMAZING GRACE IN MY LIFE THAT CONTIUALLY SAVES A WRETCH LIKE ME. WE ARE MOVING INTO A TWO-BEDROOM APARTMENT IN THE SAME COMPLEX THAT WE LOVE SO MUCH ON APRIL 15.  DEUCE WILL HAVE HIS OWN ROOM FOR WHEN HE COMES OVER AND WE'LL GO AHEAD AND MOVE THE COMPUTER DESK INTO HIS ROOM AS WELL TO GIVE US SOMEMORE SPACE IN OUR BEDROOM, AND WE ARE SO EXCITED ABOUT THAT.  SHE IS PROBABLY AND HOPEFULLY GOING BACK TO WORK ON TUESDAY AFTER SHE GETS A SIGNED RELEASE ON MONDAY.  WE BOTH HAVE THIS GUT FEELING THAT WE ARE GOING TO HAVE A BABY GIRL BEFORE THE END OF THIS YEAR, SO WE ARE CAUTIOUSLY BELIEVING IN FAITH AND KNOWING THAT WE ONLY HAVE UNTIL THE END OF THIS MONTH TO HAVE A FULL TERM HEALTHY BABY BY THE END OF THE YEAR.  WE WON'T BE TOO DISAPOINTED IF WE DON'T BECAUSE WE BOTH NOW FULLY BELIEVE THAT IT WILL HAPPEN AND IT'LL HAPPEN AT THE PERFECT TIME THAT THE LORD WANTS IT TO HAPPEN NO MATTER WHEN IT IS.  NEEDLESS TO SAY, WE ARE VERY MUCH IN LOVE AND ENJOYING VERY MUCH THE OPPORTUNITIES THAT WE HAVE TO COME TOGETHER AND PROCEED IN THE PROCESS THAT IS TRADITIONALLY REQUIRED FOR US TO MAKE A BEAUTIFUL BABY TOGETHER.  I JUST WANT TO PRAISE JESUS CHRIST FOR EVERYTHING.  THINGS ARE FINALLY STARTING TO TURN AROUND FOR US, AND THE ONLY THING THAT COULD MAKE US HAPPIER WOULD BE FOR HER TO GIVE BIRTH TO A BEAUTIFUL AND HEALTHY BABY, AND WE HAVE ULTIMATE FAITH IN GOD THAT IT WILL HAPPEN AT THE PERFECT TIME FOR HIS DEVINE BLESSING IN OUR LIFE.  IN JESUS' ALMIGHTY NAME, AMEN AND A-TO-DA-MAN.          I LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT, SO I'M DUMPING THIS HERE UNTIL I GET IT BACK.   AND GOD IS IN THE BLIMP LOOKING DOWN OVER YOUR LIFE, ONLY HE CAN SEE WHAT IS COMING MINUTES, WEEKS, AND EVEN YEARS AHEAD ON YOUR ROUTE.  YOU CAN ONLY SEE WHAT IS DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF YOU, OR REMEMBER WHAT YOU HAVE PASSED.THINGS HAPPEN IN YOUR LIFE, AND YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHY THEY'RE HAPPENING.  THEY ARE ALL PART OF GOD'S PERFECT PLAN AND TIMING.  IF YOU LOOK BACK OVER YOUR LIFE, I'M SURE THAT YOU CAN SEE WHERE SOMETHING HAPPENED TH