god give me strength........

Everyday I wake and I ask god to give me strength to deal with my ex. I have my moment and I cry because I feel like I need to let it out before it takes my body over. Most times that cry can be so hard that it will make me sick to my stomach. I really have no idea how I continue to have the strength to keep positive for myself and my son. I hold so much in because I feel like after 20 years now people are just tired of hearing about how much I am struggling with this one person and his constant need to make my life difficult, specially now because I now know as does everyone else does that he is BP. Does that mean he has some kind of right to be the burden he is to my child, his own child....and my life?
God somehow always helps me through each day. The days I hear nothing from that man I am thankful. My smile is bigger than the day before, my laugh is louder, there is a peace in my heart and there is hope that my child and I will make it through this war with his father.
God holds hands with all the angels I have watching over me and my children. And for that I am forever thankful........
In gods name I trust.