Goal update

Today is 65 days sober.  Don't get me wrong, I am happy about that but it is a bad day.  A very bad day.  I have had less than 5 hours sleep and I woke up.  Just woke up for no reason.  That always makes me angry and starts my day off wrong. I had a rough night last night.  I was very manic according to my sponsor but I finally got my brain to shut down enough where I could get at least a little sleep.  Things around here are pretty rough financially and it really sucks.  Not even sure how i am going to be able to buy my meds in a few days or pay for the visit to the psychiatrist.  I know I need them but I guess if I don't have it I won't be able to get them.  I guess today is the crash that my sponsor has been warning me about.  It is a super down day.  My mind is still racing but I don't really care about anything. I just want to go under my covers and stay there all day.  I can so I think I will. 

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awww,please don\'t hide away,I\'ve done that so many times,thing is I always feel worse the next day.
Be proud of your acievements,I\'m proud of you
deleted_user
deleted_user

oh.. I\'m sorry.. please remember the great strides you are making in taking care of yourself. And, you are..
HUGS to you........
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Hey, I could hear the desperation in tour words. Please don\'t give into it and shut down. My best advise is to get to a hospital quickly andd get yourself some help.They can help you and make sure you stay safe.And they could provide meds.Please...do something to help yourself. You have already reached out. i am here if you want to talk. Annie (((HUGS)))