Goal: medidation.

 I did it once. Why?  I simply forgot. I should have put it in my schedule. I didn't. I am feeling unpatient to do it. I think time at night is short for that.  Actually when I go to sleep I just wanna stay in bed and in this medidation I have to sit. I feel ashamed to say but I feel lazy and anxious to stay for 15 minutes with eyes closed while I pay attention to my breath. I feel like I am loosing my time. On the other hand, I know that medidation is going to reduce my bad feelings, will give me energy....it takes time to make results and it needs discipline. I definetely have to focus on this good results. If I did it once and had good results I can do it again!!! Well, I will try to do this night and next ones..