Gloomy Day

It's common knowledge that Florida natives are hopelessly addicted to sunshine, we get crabby right away when it gets cloudy.   Of course I have dozens of really good reasons to be crabby, even without clouds. I am honestly getting fairly discouraged lately, things are not going that well.  Despite years of trying to rehabilitate myself with good meals and exercise, I have not really made much progress.  I don't regret any of it, but I admit I had some hope that I would gain some ground against my ME. I am more fit physically, but I run out of gas at about the same place I always do, and I still have days strung together where I feel really exhausted all the time.  I guess this is the stage of things where I am supposed to accept my illness and settle for what's left of me. Unfortunately, I just don't think that will happen, I am not the kind of person who gives up.  So I guess I am stuck with my endless struggle.  Well there are worse things. I have the new gardening season to look forward to, at any rate.  My container gardening has not worked out too well, it may be a drainage problem.  I have to dump some of the failures out in a wheelbarrow and give them a feel and a sniff.  I tried using wood chips in the bottoms of the containers, I think that was my problem. Some of the changes I made in my life have worked out well.  I am really enjoying the freedom of living without the ringer on the telephone.  Things are so much more relaxed and peaceful.  If it were not for needing it for the internet connection, I would shut it down altogether and save some money every month.  It is amazing how it so quickly becomes an obligation to have a telephone, like some kind of duty to make yourself available to doctor's secretaries and survey takers.  I do enjoy the outrage I get from people when I tell them they can't call me on the phone.  "Well, what's your cell phone number?  I'll call you on that.  You don't have a cell phone???!!"