Gloomy Day

This morning I am missing my mother, I think it is because I got some issues off my chest with my sister whom I feel was the last straw for my mother to take her life.  I know everyone is responsibile for their own actions.  My son Matt helped me with myspace acct and I added a slide show of my mother and the music I love for her and it looks so wonderful.   Missing my sone Greg can't wait to see him in about 13 days at family day in SC.  He still wont be home until Nov after TI training.   Jada is becoming a handful and being very fresh lately I think she is getting to use to use now.  She is testing the waters with hitting, junping on the furniture and yelling at you.  Last night she cried real hard for the first time and it made me very upset because I called Uncle Jess on her when she hit me and told me she could do what ever she wanted because Aunt Renee said so.  I thought we were playing but she took it very hard and when she heard Jess's voice she knew she was in trouble.   Been having some heartburn in the mornings I think it is from eating beef jerky at night too late.  I have been chewing pepcid first thing.  The rest of the day is ok.   I have been driving my hubby crazy with wanting sex lately it is all I can think about.  I feel so sexual with dropping the pounds.  I am also thinking it is around that time of the month as well.   I still have 8lbs to hit the big 100 lb loss and I am so hoping to be there before going to SC for graduation.