GLOOM...DESPAIR...and AGONY ON ME....

DEEP DARK DEPRESSION...
EXCESSIVE MISERY....
I don't know what to do...my therapist has told me a lot of things to do...and people here on DS have told me a lot of things to do...but still...I just don't know what to do...or where to start...
I am so overwhelmed with life and stuff...that i can't do anything...
I want to give up ...but...  I can't...
I want to die ...but... I can't...
I want to do what I want to do ...but... I can't...
I DON"T CARE... I DON"T CARE... I DON"T CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK ... SHIT ... DAMN ...
 
...sorry...that's all... 
WELL?...
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Reply #4 - 04/12/14 5:29pm
" Thanks for the replies...I will try...but ...I don't know...
After I wrote this post...I went to warm me up some food...and while in the kitchen...one of the worst rooms in my house...I had an epiphany... sort of...
...I don't know where to start...I can't get started because I don't know where to start...
of course, that one little epiphany...gets my mind racing and it just goes all over the place...but the bottom line is I don't know where to start...
Everything...everything....EVERYTHING is a effing mess and I don't know where to start...and I can't even get started....
NOWWHERE! "