Giving in

I came home from work last night after a terrible day and laid down and went straight to sleep.  I woke up this morning and decided Im giving in.

I will continue to do my best but not expect things to go my way.  I will not have hope anymore. I will except my current situation and not talk about it with anyone anymore.  I wont put my hope in people or humanity anymore.

I have no hope for myself anymore.

I will turn my phone off most of the day and only use it for emergency calls.  I dont expect my phone to ring. Instead of trying to enjoy people ill never trust instead ill go and see things i enjoy.  Like flowers and birds.

I wont expect God or the universe to give me a break.  He or it never has.