Girls Just Want To Have Fun.

So my journal last night was pretty gloomy. I have to keep telling myself it's only been four months since he left us. In that four months I found a new place to live for the kids and I. I packed up my big old house with 22 years of memories and crap. Got a storage unit to store all my crap, moved everything, unpacked everything, took on double shifts for more money, enrolled Austin in spring soccer, helped Shelby get a new car. Let's see anything else oh yes did it all with grace and style. Never once have I called him crying and begging him to come home, Never once have I destroyed any of his things that he left behind, never once have I kept his son from him, never once have I acted like a crazy woman scorned and going to end up on "Snapped". I just have tried to accept what it is and do the best I can. Not to say I don't cry and feel really really bad at times I just never involved him in it, even though he caused it all. I'm learning more and more what a selfish I mean a total selfish person is capable of. See i'm a very giving person. I love helping and taking care of people. I love to cook big meals for family and friends ect.. So trying to understand how he can only think of his wants and his needs is just mind blowing to me because I am not that type of person and I probably will never understand.
So dto get back to my title "Girls just want to have fun" I decided today that I have been through alot in the past 4 months I have accomplised and met goals I set for myself so it's time for a little trip. As we know by my username I LOVE EVERYTHING DISNEY!!!! I even have a tinkerbell tattoo to prove it. My whole extended family lives in Cali just 30 min from Disneyland. So I have decided since Shelby just got a beautiful new Nissan Sentra it would only take maybe $100.00 in gas to get there and back and we already have season passes because we usually go three times a year WHY NOT!!!! So over Easter break we are leaving Thursday and coming home Monday. I will get to see all my family and have a big Easter dinner as usual only I don't have to cook it even better. It gives me something so fun and positive to look forward too. I have just over a month to save a little extra money have to cut back on ther things but that's ok. I have learned what I thought I needed to survive I really don't need or use anyway it just takes up space. So my first trip is planned without him wish me luck. And to quote the great Bill Murray from "What about Bob" "I need a vacation....A vacation from my problems"