Getting worse

Its 8/22/17 youed think my depression episode would be over by now well nope at this point I think there's no hope but I'll still try to get better.  If u don't now me I m Max im 13 going to be 14 in September I'm going in to 8th grade  I'm 5'2 and I'm 260 pounds in that's a lot for a 14 year old I hate my body I think I'm gross. Im  a cheer leader I have been for 4 years Now I love it but  all the ppl and the team hate they think I'm some kind of monster but thats fine I don't like them ether I have some friends like Tessa we met in school my ela teacher sat us next to each other and I started talk and haven't really stoped sanse then.  I'm also really good at hiding how I feel in class everyone know me is they don't then they are about to I'm nice to everyone just don't piss me off.  If I'm "hate" someone I'll still be nice to them just cuz I don't like them dosent mean I have to do be mean to them I can hate them in  silence ya know.