Getting through all the stupid crap.
I know things like a busted pipe or a stupid flat tire are things we all face in day to day life. Somehow though when your going through a Divorce even the most common little day to day things SEEM SOOOO FRUSTRATING AND IMPOSSIBLE!!!! Why is this I wonder? When my H was here there were plenty of times when I had to fix a leak, or unclog a toilet or even hand wash our clothes if the machine broke down. Somehow right now these little annoying stupid things send me off the deep end. All I have to do is call the office and they send someone out hopefully in a day or two. I know it's no big deal but during these times I feel sooo alone I feel angry and frustrated that i'm left here alone to deal with these things. It wears on my heart and soul it's not that I can't deal with these things on my own i'm JUST PISSED THAT I HAVE TOO. It's almost like the universes way of saying " Hey T your alone and life sucks for you right now so lets throw ya a flat tire and see what that does to you."
I feel like all these super frustrating life farts as I like to call them are always a reminder that no matter how well I think i'm doing or how far i have come, maybe my life won't ever really be totally ok again. It seems as though I have this little dark cloud that follows me around and as soon as I have just a little peace or calm then BAM!! Here T here's a little poo for you. I don't think I have had ONE DAY in the past 8 months where everything was great from morning til night. Something always gets screwed up my apt, my stbx, my kids, my dogs, my job,my friends, my family,my car, my bills, ALWAYS SOMETHING!!!! I would just like ONE FULL DAY OF PEACE PLEASE, JUST ONE where nothing breaks, cries, gets shut off, poops, or pees anywhere in my apt... Just one day is that too much to ask for??????
I feel like all these super frustrating life farts as I like to call them are always a reminder that no matter how well I think i'm doing or how far i have come, maybe my life won't ever really be totally ok again. It seems as though I have this little dark cloud that follows me around and as soon as I have just a little peace or calm then BAM!! Here T here's a little poo for you. I don't think I have had ONE DAY in the past 8 months where everything was great from morning til night. Something always gets screwed up my apt, my stbx, my kids, my dogs, my job,my friends, my family,my car, my bills, ALWAYS SOMETHING!!!! I would just like ONE FULL DAY OF PEACE PLEASE, JUST ONE where nothing breaks, cries, gets shut off, poops, or pees anywhere in my apt... Just one day is that too much to ask for??????
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Your just stressed out. I know how you feel. When my H left, my car broke down and it took 2 weeks to be fixed - had to ask a friend to drive me to work everyday and to the market. Then I picked it up after $1,000 dollars in repairs that I didn\'t have and it broke again with a radiator hose about a month later which was another $150.
Please take stock in the fact that you are doing great. You are well on your way to a new and happier life. I\'m sure if you really think about it, things are a lot calmer with your stbx not being there. Even though you lost the marriage and life that you worked for, you will be OK. God put you in this place for a reason - have faith that you are on the right path.
It will be OK - you will have a day of peace. And - today is that day. It\'s all in how you look at it. (hugs) Have a peaceful day!
T I am so sorry for the way you are feeling. As KRK says it is because you are feeling really stressed right now. You need to find a way to relax and allow yourself to get into a more positive way of looking at things.
I try to look at all these little things as tests to prove to myself how amazing I am, and how capable of being on my own. I think it is all about how we look at things.
I think life will always throw us these curve balls, so it is all about how we approach them that will help us to deal with it. Be strong!! You are a wonderful and very capable woman, and you will triumph over this!!
Just pray for some joy and peace in your life. If you pray for the strength to get through all of this God may send you another test to help you learn that strength. We have to be careful how we pray, because we get what we pray for. So pray for the peace and joy. It will come!!!
T, it\'s NORMAL to have your nerves on edge when all this divorce crap is going on in the background. I have been there and done that! Just do your best to take things ONE AT A TIME and deal with them.
I STILL have times when things sort of pile up on me and I think \"why me?\" and \"why now?\" It\'s just LIFE....and I don\'t think God has anything to do with any of them. He is just looking down and OBSERVING how we deal with these bumps in the road.
You are doing really well. Don\'t let the small stuff get to you, ok?
xoxoxo
Call if you need a \"tune up\"!
I know how you feel. It seems like the divorce is enough of a problem to deal with and then there is all the other little stupid stuff that happens . It seems like we are being constantly tested from every angle.It is all part of life. it doesn\'t seem like you are doing better,but you are. Day by day. Deep Breaths.You can do it!
:) Maggie