Getting there inspite of ed thoughts and feelings

I am still staying strong, i dont want to give in! I am eating the most healthy diet i have in at least four years. I know i still have a long way to go and a lot of fighting to do but i am staying strong because i know i am on a journey to a better healthier life. I am eating three balanced meals a day and for the last 6 days i have managed to have snacks too. i am having a lot more carbs than ed would like and keep feeling bad about it, but i know really am not eating to many, in fact i knowoverall i do still need to up my calorie intake, but i know that will slowly increase because i have been managing to increase. also i am counting calories less, when i start to count i get annoyed that ed is makng me obcess and count so at times i am refusing to count almost like i am arguing with the voice of ed thats in my head. (i'm hoping i dont sound too crazy, but i know if i am going to find understanding anywhere then i am likely to here).  I wont let this beat me! I'll beat it!