Getting sick of it

Ok I'm really getting sick of her trying to act like she loves me when all she is doing is just doing something nice so she can feel better about herself. Why am I just some good deed to her and not a real friend?? Why doesn't she want me as a real friend?? I guess I really must suck. I guess she doesnt think I'm good enough to be her close friend. I'm sick of her playing me like just getting me to think I am a good friend to her but really all I am is a good deed to her to make her feel better about her self.