Getting my life back?
Even though times have been really hard... slowly but surely I feel like my life is coming back to normality. I slept at my apartment last night, it was nice it felt like my old life... I havnt moved back in but thats soon to come. I still get sad, but thats ok right now. In this moment im feeling okay, Im feeling more like me than I was 5 months ago, so there has to be progress happening and I need to remember that. I am so thankful to have meant so many wonderful people on here, I know I have made some life-long friends... even if they are across the U.S. or even in the UK lol I know now how great it is to have a truly caring network of friends who understand me. My faith in humanity has been restored there are good people in this world...
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I think it is good that you are feeling as though your life is coming back together. I was going to suggest after reading your previous post to talk to your girlfriend. Talk about how you are feeling, what you want, etc. I think that sometimes when we are dealing with life stresses sometimes it is best to take a step back, take a deep breath and just talk things out. Remember just because you fight doesn\'t mean that you shouldn\'t be together.
my dear friend.... I\'m so sorry that I didn\'t read your journal before. No one should have to go thru the stress of an illness (our pe\'s) and then the stress of a relationship. I deeply believe that most people (even us) don\'t \"get it\" when people have health problems unless we have experienced them ourselves. I\'m so sad that you are sad, but I\'m also glad to see that you\'re days are starting to be a bit more \"normal\". We\'re exactly the same time out and I\'m starting to have a few better days and doing much more. I wish that I lived in FLA to come give you a big hug..... I\'m so sorry that your mom won\'t talk to you, but it sounds like being back with your girlfriend might be the better option of the two. Does your girlfriend read any of the other messages to understand what we have experienced? This might help her have a better perspective of the issues with PE..... it\'s not just you, but so many of us and we can\'t control any of this!! Please don\'t let anyone make you feel guilty because you are depressed about your former life before the PE. God has a purpose for everything HE does..... you are having to grow up so much faster than you want to, but you will be a much wiser woman thru the years. I admire you for your courage and remember we care about you SOOO much!! Great new pic.....
Hang in there and try to focus on yourself and getting better for right now. Stress is never good.
I wish you a blessed Thanksgiving.... we are alive!
Sweetie
We have to celebrate even the smallest step forward so YEAH on sleeping at your apartment.
I know how hard it is struggling with thisPE and relationships. I\'m reallynot sure my husand and i are going to survive this. Without family support it makes this all the harder.
I am blessed in having a really strong group of women around me. Though at times I feel I am such a burden. They continue to reassure me that that is what they are there for and to have this group on top of that makes it all the better.
Love the new pic:0)
Have a great day and I\'ll check on you tonight