Getting inspired
I read journal entries from a new member and decided maybe this was way to express my feelings without having to involve the people in my life. Some people don't want to talk about it, some want to discuss all the gory details of what happened and why. I lost my son to the prison system, right or wrong, but it was one bad decision that resulted in 20 years of OUR lives taken from us. I am sad, scared, worried and YES I am mad at him too for putting us here at the same time I support and forgive him. It didn't help I lost my dad in less than a month, and I am helping my mom who has major health issues. I am fighting with a sibling, I have a full time job, I am a single mom, have two ex husbands, three other kids, one still in middle school, two dogs, two cats and friends who I can't tell. He is in another state and it is not something we discuss openly. Just a few close friends. This is so hard.
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My guy is in PA and I\'m in OH and yes it\'s very hard not seeing him :( He\'s working on his appeal to get time reduced as his original sentence was 14 to 29 yrs and he wasn\'t given the proper representation among other things. So I totally understand the frustration of a long sentence. Like you as well I have those emotions too! I don\'t talk to IRL \"friends\" because they\'d NEVER understand why I\'m choosing to love and stick with him. I\'m also a single mom to a 2 yr old whom I love to the moon and back. When I first told some \"friends\" they were like \"you just need to focus on the baby!\" Well the baby will grow up and leave the nest and then what; I\'m supposed to be all alone or a cat lady? No that\'s not fair to me!
Sorry for my long rambling, it\'s nice to finally meet someone with a loved one going though a long sentence. We\'ll get through this!!