getting better

Tomorrow I sign my refinancing paperwork that will save me some dough. I m off this weekend but have plenty of things to do. Mostly family get togethers. I think for the holidays I m just going to lay low. Its  was my wife s first anniversary on Dec. 15. Hard to believe it s been a year. I really miss her. She was always the voice of reason. I still get the rationalization thoughts to gamble but now I pick up on it right away. My emotions are in better check also. I m kind of in a hohum mood. I m learning to deal  without gambling.