Getting Back

I'm trying to get my life back on track.  My short stay in the mental hospital was quite a shock.  To be restricted to a commons area and a bedroom except to go for medical tests and going to meals, and seeing that doors were locked everywhere I went, was unnerving.  There were patio breaks where we could go outside to the courtyard to walk around.  I took advantage of them because that's where the cold water was in big iced coolers.  No smoking was allowed which didn't help my nerves much either.  It's funny, when I tried to leave the MHMR center and walk home and was stopped by the cops and decided to have a smoke, one of the cops gave a partial pack of filtered cigars that somebody left in his squad car.  They're pretty good, but I can't find them anywhere.  Home has never looked or felt better.  I've paid my bills and bought food thanks to Vickie.  I'm trying to do the things I need to do around the house,,,cleaning, taking out the trash, washing dishes, preparing meals, but it's hard.  I just want to sit around and watch T.V. or get on the internet.  It seems the dogs next door missed me too.  They seemed to be happy to see me when I saw them the morning after I got home.  My cousin told me that one of them, "Little Girl"(A.J.) barked at her when she came to the house.  Looks like I've got another guard dog!  Although they're not mine, I love them and will try to take care of them the best I can by making sure they have enough water.  Something their owners aren't doing.  I know the man of the house would make things better for them if he knew what was going on, but I can't tell him.  I guess when they come out to check on them, they think either they're not drinking a lot or it's raining in the bowls.  Foxy is staying close to me.  She's done that every time I've come back from a hospital stay.  I hate that I had to put her through that.  I appreciate that a lot of you were concerned about her even though you don't know her.  I shouldn't be surprised.  She has that affect on everybody that meets her.  So, I'll see how long it takes to get back to normal.  Thank you so very much for your concern and support.

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1Patriciann
1Patriciann

Be gentle with yourself and take it one small step at a time. Go with what feels right and over time life will teach you how to live well.

((hugs)) Patricia
Jme5
Jme5

i\'m glad to hear that things are better and that you care for others. this can be good for both of you..keep up the good work and know that we are all here for you
Ching
Ching

I didn\'t know you had been ill. I am terribly sorry, but glad you \'escaped\' and are back in your home. I hope you don\'t mind my inviting a few friends from Jazz. I thought what you started was a great idea and it is going very well. Nice people collected here. Stay well and take care of you and FD.