Generally Confused

I haven't journaled for quite some time now & thought, for the few who do check it out, that it was abt time I gave some updated news/info. I had my 6 month visit with my rheumy & he's fairly pleased with how everything is going.  He still wants me to keep taking the plaqunel although I was hoping we'd start cutting that out but alas not yet.  He put me thru my mobility paces & examined my joints & everthing seems pretty good.  I had told him I had to stop taking the bone density builder because it was setting off my restless leg symdrome but he wants me to try again for a few days & see what happens so I shall obey.  A while back I started taking a new multi-vitamin from a line we have here called Greens.  The one I'm taking is Greens Multi plus Daily Bone Builder.  Greens makes all sorts of combinations for various conditions.  I have indeed noticed improvements in my hip.  Don't know if it's just that or is it combined with the regular exercise I do a couple times a week.  Either way I do remember to thank our Lord for all his assistance in this matter.  I did tell my rheumy that I guess the one lupus thorn I'll have to live with is the sleep issue or alot of times lack of proper sleep.  But I try to remind myself that in the big picture that really is not much to seriously worry abt, right. On another hand, hubby's treatment day is fast approaching, December 22nd.  I wish I could put in words how I'm feeling but I somehow can't.  Happy, sad, confused, frustrated, feeling OK, feeling edgy, etc. etc.  Once a week I go to that conservatory/garden centre, the one I posted pics of, to meditate & pray & it's like I was telling my sister here at DS that I even feel like I have a hard time reaching out to the Lord somehow.  BUT, I'm fighting like heck to keep focused.  I guess it doesn't help that the TV news the other day had this report on radiation causing diff types of cancers.  I know they were particularily referring to MRI's & CT Scans but hey, it was not good timing to see this.  I'm wondering if I shd ask the dr abt that when we check in on Tuesday. Well I'll sign off for now.  Seems to me there was something more I wanted to talk abt can't remember somehow.  Oh well.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Hi Kitty,
I hope everything goes fine - I\'ll pray for your husband as well.
I\'ve been so focused on myself that I almost forgot that I have friends who also need support. I am sorry my words cannot be of great help, but deep in my heart I really wish you and your husband to be fine.
Thank you for being there when I needed it.
Huggs.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hello sweetie, I will be here waiting to hear from you any time you need me I am just a phone call away. I do pray for you and Mel every day and every night. God knows what is in your heart so do not worry. He knows you love him and trust Him and He will take care Mel.. I just fill it in my soul.. I love you and am here whan ever you need me. Your sister, frieda Hugs and prayes and wishes for a happy day with your family .. Frieda
mechellebelle
mechellebelle

I am so pleased to hear your hip has improved. yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please keep us posted about Hubby. I\'m sure you know this but the Lord is there, watching, waiting, wanting to encourage and support you. I think he dearly wants to bless us. alas, sometimes we just get in our own way. I know I do. Thanks for your friendship. I truly value you also. giant hugs and Happy 2010, m