General update from my Therapy session

Ok Gretechen supports me a lot.  I know that to be true.  I am currently at a turn point.  Based at what I've been told through working the steps and counseling here is what needs to happen.  1.)  I get to choose my path and destiny in life.  What motivates me and what are my goals?  2.)  I need to believe that my goals are worthwhile and that I can achieve them with the help of others and God.  But will not achieve them by living in a fog of anxiety.  3.)  I am not a victim!!!  I need to realize that I am not a victim of myh own thinking.  Sure it sucks to deal with these thoughts but I do not need to let them control me by any means.  4.) Grace, Grace.  Learn to accept that others aren't out to make me feel more anxious or desire my harm.  In fact the opposite is true.  5.)  I can do this.  By letting go and giving God the problems and know that I will make mistakes along the way!   AND LASTLY THOUGHTS ARE JUST THOUGHTS.   They really aren't real and they don't need to be real.  The anxiety is a lie, the lie is bullshit and I hvae to accept that as just that.   WORK MY PROGRAM.  JOURNAL, JOURNAL, JOURNAL.