general update

so i used to be on here as bumsen30 left this site to work and get help so its been a few years,general update: i was doing well til recently i lost my job of almost 2 years because of being a dumbass(best job i had ever) the following monday after i got fired i found out after 16 years of thinking i was bipolar when in fact i have borderline personality disorder,major depressive disorder,and generalized anxiety disorder,i felt devestated,started crying,read up on it started crying more because it made so much sense why i cant ever be happy,i try but its short lived im up and down everyday its hell,still looking for work,considering disability because most days i dont want to do shit just lay in bed doing nothing