General Update

I really want to sing but I cant.The lessons are very expensive here and i simply cant afford it.I have to take care of the house and cats. But today was special.Brad had to go to school and I am alone most of the day.So I am doing all of my chores and I did sing a bit.I do miss choir..but this is the winter time all over.It gets dark early in seattle and some parts of where I live get pitch black.Plus...the buses here are cold and I mean cold.I have been freezing and I came down with a very bad cold.I still see some people who are in the choir.It is now up to 50 people and they have an overabundance of sopranos.Many people have left..but Chris has got his favorites and this isnt fair.Favorites dont belong in school or work.They dont even belong at home.Favorite children grew up to be some of the unruliest brats that I have even seen.I was told to rest and I have been.I was a bit run down..but losing my job here with the weather did depress me and now I am not really in the funds.As for me..I am going to forsake 3 friendships.It doesnt pay me to even see or call them.They never call me back and they are always busy...why dont these people get balls and tell me the truth? They dont want my friendship anymore because of my bi polar..but I am not like many bi polars and they know it.Let them rot for all I care..because I dont.If this is being there for you...then I simply wont have it...and that goes when I do see them and they talk about the grandchildren.These people  cannot understand something..some people arent interested in certain things and I am one of them.And they take this as an offense..well..excuse me! At least I still read books and magazines..some of these people havent read a book since the 8th grade.Apparenty being well informed and having good conversation doesnt interest them and I will end with these..these people wouldnt and I mean wouldnt survive in New York...They would have to do piece work in order to survive...they would be lost..and if they do become lost there it is because they want to get lost and not listen to people who used to live there are some of the dangers..so she and others can shove off...