General stuff

So I sit here today and wonder when does his memory ever go away?  When do the thoughts of where is he, who is he with and does he ever think of me or want to reach out to me?  Doubt it....I worry about my future and being "alone".  I see as my son now tries to figure out his next steps in his life and he will move on.  I will be left in my home "alone" for the first time in many many years.  It is not a good feeling....