Funk

I've been in a funk the last few days.  Yesterday my boss told me I needed to start taking my vacation.  I have 8 days vacation left for the year and feel like I'm saving them in case I get sick or something.  I feel stressed by her constant need to control but understand why she does it-having a business is stressful.  Nonetheless, Im not ignorant.  I constantly feel like she's always trying to "Gotcha ya" in everything I do.

Things kindve went sideways when I told her months ago that I keep my private life private and stopped talking about my life at work.  I only talk about work or what's on television.  She figured out that I moved and mentioned I need to change my address and I told her I'd get around to doing it but dont want her having the satisfaction of knowing where I live and as long as the insurance company forwards everything to my new address she doesn't need to know.  

Last night I was watching YouTube about car dwelling again.  I am drawn to that lifestyle but thankful I didn't do it when things were shut down.  But..the want for saving money draws me in.  The peacefulness and freedom draws me in.  Tonight I am going to do the Math and see if I could save substaintely while doing it.  I've figured out that relationships make me feel like a prisoner.  As long as I'm in one I'm going to have to be accountable for my whereabouts and anything I do.  I think I'm a gypsy.