Funk

I have been in a funk since Monday.  I think I've finally accepted my decision and realize the Head over Heart decisions are whats best for me at this stage in my life.  It gives me stability wheras before I was making the Heart decisions and was getting burned and putting myself in bad  situations.  I had to make a choice between a Fire sign and an Earth sign.  The Fire sign I met because he texted my number accidently and we preceeded to converse with each other and finally met.  We were strongly connected I felt, but, he had a temper and I found him making demands that I wasn't ready for yet.  The Earth sign has been steady and true and everyday I have more love for him but there is no passion,  it's more like we just exist peacefully with each other and I'm trying to figure out if this is enough.  The Fire Sign texted me Mon and said he is going to track me down  and my response to him was not to bother.  I haven't seen nor heard from him since. 

I heard something the other day that pretty much summed it up for me.  Some people are in love with the "thrill" of finding the one in life and constantly seek that feeling out.  I had to stop and think about that.  I think I realized I must stop chasing that thrill and I think this is what makes me so sad.