Full blown panic attack

Well,  the fudge is made but I could not get to it until after I got a panic attack under control.  I was doing OK.  Not wanting to do anything but was succeeding in forcing myself to move my big butt.  Then it just washed over me.  I was crying when the funeral home called from the cemetery.  Although Dix gravesite had been smoothed over it was still not ready to set the stone.  They wanted to know if I wanted it done anyway so it would be there for Christmas.  I told them not to do it until the ground was ready.  Guess we have to wait for more rain. That threw me over the edge.  I could not breath, was sick to my stomach & sweating like a pig.  I tried to carry on but finally had to take a pill.  Now I am sleepy.  I did get some lunch & now I am back to where I was 5 hours ago.  In the recliner watching more or the NCIS merathon.  did get the neighbor's gift wrapped.  No fire wood moved.  Christi,  I hope that you had a good lunch with your mom & got propane.  I think I am about to fall asleep.  I am going to just let those clothes in the dryer sit there and wrinkle.  I don't give a s___!  Hope you are all getting ahead more than I am.  Love & Hugs,  Val
Merry  Christmas  ??