Fuck nudes. Send me a picture of your medicine cabinet ... lol//s and his "disease"
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Fuck nudes.
Send me a picture of your medicine cabinet. I need to know what kind of psycho I'm dealing with.
Fsensitivity
Best relationship tip ever.
It doesn't always work.
when i first knew s, he wasn't ill in anyway, but he did mention something about a child-bride because he spent a lot of time travelling in other countries. in 1985 i was young and had no idea what a child-bride was; and i didn't know what it was, until six years later when i took sociology of marriage and family in college. even then i didn't know the abusive extreme of that until i took institutional racism and some womens' studies classes at upenn. then you get horrified and wake up to some of the disgust going on out there on an "institutional" level. any government can make ANYTHING legal, it doesn't mean its right. it always becomes, if you were that person, would you want that done to you. if the answer is no, then the answer is, then don't do it. life is simple.
his answer would be you can't tell other cultures what to do. hmmm. another lie because "legally" all of that shit is ILLEGAL in other cultures as well. instead i said, okay show me a law book from their country, so i can READ it and find where it says that is LEGAL. he says okay.
then he flies back into usa and comes back with, well, LEGALLY, its not legal. and i'm like, no shit. then he just gets pissed off. that battle went on for over twelve years of our marriage. i have no idea what went on after that as we were both always away, (we were always away anyway most of the time, from each other, but even more so after that).
people don't get "cured" of their beliefs - even though s is american. especially, if its something they were taught from some other adult (not his father) and decided that was the way to be at a young age (kids/teens are impressionable and they bond to things that they would resist completely if they were a normal adult) - s attended high school mostly in france, not usa. from france he would travel all over the place with and without his friends from europe - that's how he became friends with my first husband, who had attended college in france and part of grad school. they were best friends, but s was also "best friends" with my husband's family accountant, who was both a crook and a pervert. the truth is the accountant was older than both of them and manipulating and robbing (and worse) all of them and had been for decades before they were even around. when the accountant got caught, the court system was too lenient with him and whatever he had been doing continued to get worse since now he felt he could keep getting away with it. its sickening.
i don't think people reform at all ever. i think they get better and better at covering up what they really are. covering up something is not "reform" - whatever is their evil, is just sitting there waiting to come out. most people's bad habits are more like a disease, like they say with alcoholism or drugs or gambling, its a disease that never goes away at all, it just sits there waiting to come out, even though the person with that disease definitely knows how repulsive everything about them is, when their "disease" decides to express itself.
i think what embarrassed s, who thinks highly of himself, is that he was already practicing all of this shit for many years and then he discovers it IS illegal, and then he feels "stupid" for not already knowing if its not illegal it should be, and by that time, its an addiction. by the time he comprehended that its illegal and shouldn't be going on, he had already been "promoting" it amongst pretty much everyone he knew everywhere and had acquired a number of enemies because of it, so he becomes more embarrassed. he could start fresh elsewhere, but it always seemed to me, you run into the same people, even when you do the world travel thing. and the odds of s staying in one place back then were zero. then he got ill for real and everything stopped and all the focus went elsewhere. when he "recovered" he went right back to living way out there until that crashed down around him in 2005.
then he started trying half way measures living between greece, turkey, western europe and usa, and has done that ever since, pretty dangerous thing to do when you are truly ill and getting older all the time and age in and of itself brings illness. age also made him not care at all about whatever mistakes he made or promoted in the past, he doesn't see the people he knew back then and some of those people won't remember, though my family in europe always remembers and most of them won't tolerate him. even he says, he doesn't deserve to be still living. glad he knows that, but it doesn't change the rest of it at all. at least he knows to stay AWAY from those who can't stand him - and for those people, they will only have peace when he really is dead.
wow, what a dark journal. which is odd, because today is a big wedding day. i actually know two people who got married today and have been posting photos this afternoon. my generation is now the old ones in every photo. lol. one of my ex's, in one of the photos is this year, totally gray - last year there was still color to his hair. lol. omg!
s still has mostly brown hair. but s is way worse than the ex in the photo character-wise. then the discussion becomes, and if those people were raised with everything under the sun available to them and offered to them, do you think they would make all good decisions? i'd hope so, but you don't know until you live it.
Fuck nudes.
Send me a picture of your medicine cabinet. I need to know what kind of psycho I'm dealing with.
Fsensitivity
Best relationship tip ever.
It doesn't always work.
when i first knew s, he wasn't ill in anyway, but he did mention something about a child-bride because he spent a lot of time travelling in other countries. in 1985 i was young and had no idea what a child-bride was; and i didn't know what it was, until six years later when i took sociology of marriage and family in college. even then i didn't know the abusive extreme of that until i took institutional racism and some womens' studies classes at upenn. then you get horrified and wake up to some of the disgust going on out there on an "institutional" level. any government can make ANYTHING legal, it doesn't mean its right. it always becomes, if you were that person, would you want that done to you. if the answer is no, then the answer is, then don't do it. life is simple.
his answer would be you can't tell other cultures what to do. hmmm. another lie because "legally" all of that shit is ILLEGAL in other cultures as well. instead i said, okay show me a law book from their country, so i can READ it and find where it says that is LEGAL. he says okay.
then he flies back into usa and comes back with, well, LEGALLY, its not legal. and i'm like, no shit. then he just gets pissed off. that battle went on for over twelve years of our marriage. i have no idea what went on after that as we were both always away, (we were always away anyway most of the time, from each other, but even more so after that).
people don't get "cured" of their beliefs - even though s is american. especially, if its something they were taught from some other adult (not his father) and decided that was the way to be at a young age (kids/teens are impressionable and they bond to things that they would resist completely if they were a normal adult) - s attended high school mostly in france, not usa. from france he would travel all over the place with and without his friends from europe - that's how he became friends with my first husband, who had attended college in france and part of grad school. they were best friends, but s was also "best friends" with my husband's family accountant, who was both a crook and a pervert. the truth is the accountant was older than both of them and manipulating and robbing (and worse) all of them and had been for decades before they were even around. when the accountant got caught, the court system was too lenient with him and whatever he had been doing continued to get worse since now he felt he could keep getting away with it. its sickening.
i don't think people reform at all ever. i think they get better and better at covering up what they really are. covering up something is not "reform" - whatever is their evil, is just sitting there waiting to come out. most people's bad habits are more like a disease, like they say with alcoholism or drugs or gambling, its a disease that never goes away at all, it just sits there waiting to come out, even though the person with that disease definitely knows how repulsive everything about them is, when their "disease" decides to express itself.
i think what embarrassed s, who thinks highly of himself, is that he was already practicing all of this shit for many years and then he discovers it IS illegal, and then he feels "stupid" for not already knowing if its not illegal it should be, and by that time, its an addiction. by the time he comprehended that its illegal and shouldn't be going on, he had already been "promoting" it amongst pretty much everyone he knew everywhere and had acquired a number of enemies because of it, so he becomes more embarrassed. he could start fresh elsewhere, but it always seemed to me, you run into the same people, even when you do the world travel thing. and the odds of s staying in one place back then were zero. then he got ill for real and everything stopped and all the focus went elsewhere. when he "recovered" he went right back to living way out there until that crashed down around him in 2005.
then he started trying half way measures living between greece, turkey, western europe and usa, and has done that ever since, pretty dangerous thing to do when you are truly ill and getting older all the time and age in and of itself brings illness. age also made him not care at all about whatever mistakes he made or promoted in the past, he doesn't see the people he knew back then and some of those people won't remember, though my family in europe always remembers and most of them won't tolerate him. even he says, he doesn't deserve to be still living. glad he knows that, but it doesn't change the rest of it at all. at least he knows to stay AWAY from those who can't stand him - and for those people, they will only have peace when he really is dead.
wow, what a dark journal. which is odd, because today is a big wedding day. i actually know two people who got married today and have been posting photos this afternoon. my generation is now the old ones in every photo. lol. one of my ex's, in one of the photos is this year, totally gray - last year there was still color to his hair. lol. omg!
s still has mostly brown hair. but s is way worse than the ex in the photo character-wise. then the discussion becomes, and if those people were raised with everything under the sun available to them and offered to them, do you think they would make all good decisions? i'd hope so, but you don't know until you live it.
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according to aunt sue, who likes s, (her daughter hates him, so do my cousins. wonder how much i don\'t know about with that). she says when he was first diagnosed as ill in 1987 and focused only on college and getting well, he was doing fine. when he \"got well\" by 1991 or 1992, he wasn\'t sure what direction he would go in with it. hard to get info on him back then because people are trying to be nice because he was sick. he at first snapped into just two, the original girlfriend from the 80\'s and some other girl, who he then discovered wanted his money. no surprise. so then that was over. i\'ll skip the next part because it involves jonk and then he basically went back to being totally s, some random girlfriend who was as bad as him and being a tyrant with the kids and anyone else he felt he could be a tyrant with, when he discovered exactly what was up the girlfriend\'s sleeve, he gave up parenting and went back to the original, greece, turkey and surrounding areas thing, then it gets too complicated to even deal with. the way he acts i would think he has bursts of bi-polar, but he doesn\'t have it and since then, in my opinion there has been more illness than anything else anyway - but he is still living beyond expectations healthwise. strange how life pans out.
if you mention him to linda, she says, its amazing what a prick he turned out to be. just like that. lol. it used to be, giggles about s, just like with e, because both were such \"spoiled\" boys. its almost incomprehensible when someone is like that. though r and his cousin donjf were equally spoiled and not at all like that, they were hardworking in everything they did and extremely athletic and studious. s was always one down from that. he could do just as much, but never on a pro level - or not the pro-level that he expected or not with the sales level of pro on and on and on. which goes back to the, the younger you start working the more polished you are and the later you start working or if you never work you end up a jerk.