FUCK. MY. LIFE.
i talked to one of my teachers today because i'm getting an F in her class even though i shouldn't be....i asked her if she thought i would be able to pass her class and she said no....i felt nothing....i was just numb....i came home and texted my parents....my mom called and was angry at my teacher.....told me to e-mail her and all this stuff...I wanna self injure....just cut....i don't care if anyone sees it....i'm wearing the shortest shirt i have so i can always just use this as a reference point as to where to make the cuts...i think my mom is so angry she doesn't notice that i have urges....my dad told me to hang in there and to know that self injuring won't solve anything....i know that....i just wanna feel something and i just wanna make the pain go away....focus on something else that isn't THIS.....fuck my life....just fuck. my. life.
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I used to drink, Val. It never solved anything either. Probably like your cutting, just an temporary way out of whatever is going on. I hope you choose to not cut. I hope you know as your dad said, it won\'t solve anything.
I\'m not sure why your mom is mad at your teacher over your failing grade?
This was insensitive from her to tell you won\'t pass your class. Maybe she doesn\'t know you have to deal with urges, that would explain why she said that to you. Anybody can fail a subject, don\'t be hard with yourself. Please don\'t cut yourself. Try to find something to do instead of that, keep busy.
my mom was mad that my teacher even said that to me...my teacher also said that i won\'t get an better.....it isn\'t that easy to just accept this failing grade.....i have 2 tests left and 1 portfolio left....that\'s it.....and i don\'t know if i\'ll pass those
I guess I don\'t see it at insensitive b/c it was the truth, right? Maybe she meant given that you are getting an F now, that there isn\'t anything you can do to make up enough to pass.
If its too late to make up anything, acceptance might be the only way to go to make it easier on you, you know? And if its that hard of a class or she isn\'t a teacher you can learn from, then perhaps a tutor would be beneficial if its a class you can take again.
But I think the bottom line is that it isn\'t worth cutting over. Please know that.
i CAN\'T take the class again....if i fail i can\'t take it again....i can\'t take the last class in the fall.....you really don\'t think that\'s insensitive?? \"yeah, you won\'t pass..\" that\'s what she said.....i asked for ideas to improve and she didn\'t say anything....why pass me first semester if you don\'t think i can handle second semester??? why are you leading me on???
Some professors are insensitive or rude with students and they may not realize how their words affect the students. It was bad from her to tell you that you won\'t get any better. I think you can improve. I don\'t know why she didn\'t give you any ideas to improve. She doesn\'t sound empathetic. Failing grades are difficult to accept. Try your best in the other tests and portfolio. My best wishes for you.