Fuck It!

I am not going to fight this stupid bipolar shit anymore!  Who is it that says being bipolar is bad anyway???? I think trying to control it is the bad thing.  I called my pdoc and asked if I needed to do anything special to go off of the lemictal and he just told me to come in at 8am tomorrow.  I also screwed up at work. They told me to take a client to work on my contract 2 days a week, even though I have people laid off that are members of my crew.  I was told I didn't have a choice. I told my boss that they needed to put me on another contract (Impossible, since my contacts are the only thing keeping it alive) or I was going to call back all my employees and work everyone until every last cent is spent, then lay them all off!      I hate hypocracy and ignorance!  My boss is lucky to string two sentences together without drooling on her keyboard.      So off I go to the doc. to get off the meds. because my head feels like a balloon that is going to pop and I would rather explode and get rid of the pressure then to stay medicated and always just be on the edge with no relief in sight.  I can't wait!  And if anyone gets in my way after I leave his office I will smight them down with a storm of shit the likes they have never seen before.  I can't wait to unload, get all of this anger and rage out and when it is done, maybe I will be able to sleep for awhile, or the police might shoot me...Either way tomorrows the day. I care for you all, Joshuattee